Silly BoySilly boyYou don't know who you're fucking [with]I'm not the same [as all those other] girl[s]You played around with me onceBut it's been monthsAnd now you are here [to play] againYou don't know the rules [have changed]I'll give you what you want [so long as I want it too]But you just don't know [where your privlege ends]September, I was a fool[ish girl]But there were lessons to learn [always learn well]You told me I had worth [I guess you thought if you gave it you could take it away]Despite my disbelief [to your obvious relief]I learned my lessons [every painful one]There is power in Silence [which makes you squirm]And weight in a Stare [whose gaze you cannot meet]And worth;[in me!]once given, [given by you]Cannot be taken away.You gave me tools [to craft your own lessons]Silly boyYou don't know who you're fucking [with]I'm not the same [stupid, foolish, naive, little] girl.
I will Never be BeautifulI will never be beautifulI will never be normalBut can't I just be good enoughTo be some funFor some one whoWill never be perfect either?I know I can't be beautifulI'm a mix of too much plain.I never held hopes of that,Never cherished those false dreams,But I know I'm not uglyI'm too plain to warrant "repulsive."I've never though normalWas something I'd want to beBut normal peopleAre good enoughTo have some funWith other normal peopleEven if they are uglyI will never be beautifulI will never be normalBut they're good enoughBecause they're normalI will never be beautifulI will never be normalI will never be good enough.
This is My LifeThis is my life to liveThese are my mistakes to makeThis is my joy to giveand my pain to takeYou say i'm crazyYou think i'm goneYou think i'm going to die too soonI say not soon enoughI say I am goneHave been for a long timeAnd I am crazyIt's one of the only things that gets my pulse up anymore.I'm going to do what I wantHow I wantWith whom I want.Try and stop me?I'll spit in your eye.