I miss you

I miss you when I don't see you.
I smile when I do.
You make me happy,
Make me laugh
When I have no right to.
We've gone over this.
You're not for me
No matter what i wish.
You're my friend
That makes me glad
Though I still wish for more.
Yes, I swallowed.
Yes, I stepped.
But over you I teeter.
I wobble,
On the brink of stepping back.
I want to hold you,
Want to touch you
Want to keep you for myself
And I have no right!
I have no right to feel this way.
This sense of ownership.
I know this!
But I can't stop it.
I can't make it quit.
Everyday this feeling grows
And still I have no right.
I know you've other things,
To occupy your mind,
You've a band to work on,
Your music to love,
Your life to manage
And still I want your heart!
I there isn't room for me.
I know it isn't meant.
But still my heart is telling me.
You're the one I want.
I'll hold myself back.
I'll stay in line.
I'll keep control.
Because if I don't control this,
I'll loose you completely
And push you away,
Beyone even friendship.
But it's still you I want.